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I went to ask Daddy about something, and he ... I don't even know. He didn't say very much to me, and he looked worried, and I can tell how worried he looked because it was how he looks before he gets me to do something that might be risky, and I don't know if that's what's going to happen, and ... Is he going to get me to do something else so soon? Why else would he be worried?

I bet he's going to ask me to do it next month. He wants me to look very somber and thoughtful during this holiday. It's going to make the mood worse, but it will look like it's supposed to, and we need everything looking just right.

... I want everything to be normal again! I was allowed to look a little happier for a time, but am I supposed to look sad forever? This isn't me!

It's not fair...

I'm going to get to wear a mask to the Dark chapel at least. I've never been able to do it before. I know who I have to pray for.

At least I can still talk to Benedette! She's not here so she doesn't need to think I am still sad. I could really use someone to talk to too!

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I've heard they celebrate the Night of the Dead differently in Rhia? Is it true?